a dream log.

Saturday, December 18, 2004


These afternoon naps are giving me more dreams lately than the nights.

I had another, well, odd, one. (All dreams are odd.) I received a txt message from BIX BEIDERBECKE.. Hahaha! The tone of the message was easygoing, like you'd feel as if he was treating you like any one of his close friends, despite the fact that it had a "morning" greeting and the word "gago" in it.. It went something like "gago bakit mo gamit number ko hehehe" and he mentioned he was gonna be in 404 which I assumed to be SJ404 and that he wanted to meet up so I can return the number.. (?!?!) Must be that lost sim card lurking in my subconscious, the one I was forced to give to the Lost & Found. I was considering meeting up with Bix in 404, because, hell, it was BIX. But I simply replied "imposible naman kung pareho number natin, eto number mo o," then I pasted his number which was totally different from mine, it had a lot of 8's.

In real life I recieved a message from some guy who goes by name of "patrick t.w." saying "Pre, may mga gigs or gimiks ba dis break?" but I didn't reply coz I knew no patrick t.w.'s and I was not a "Pre". In the dream it turns out that the "Pre" patrick t.w. was referring to was Bix..

Now last night I dreamt about Tin my cousin again. She liked James, as in Marian's James. He was biking around Pasadena. There was a party in Tin's place. I took a pic of James in my digicam and somehow the pic ended up in Tin's digicam.. Frances was there, and Kim, Tin's sister. We were eating at their garage (in Unit 26) talking about James. Tin knew his whole name from research! It had Claude Tony.. but no James, although he was using James as a nickname. James was forbidden fruit, though, for obvious reasons, and in the dream Tin had a boy of her own (probably in real life too)..

Tuesday, December 14, 2004


Anton was on TV. Just his name. And his voice.

His thesis with three other guys was being featured in the news. A big-time project of some sort that would benefit society or something. Their names were flashed. ANTON DE LEON was at the bottom. And Anton was speaking over the phone or something. Explaining the project. The background was orange.

That's it..

Monday, December 13, 2004

Actors Studio

I was having an audition for a small part in a movie. Tom Hanks was the producer, director, casting director, or anybody, the person in charge. He wearing an off-white suit. He put me in the role of Carrie in a certain Sex And The City episode. I was seated around a rectangular wooden table (like the ones in Cafe Mediterranean). The scene was a table conversation with the other actors but I hardly said a word. I couldn't care less; I went out of the building with the other failed auiditioners eager to get home. The building looks like an American home inside, but outside it was Ortigas Center near Meralco. I txted Mom to pick me up. I kind of knew the other actors (like how you know people in school), but I wasn't close to them so I stayed behind while they went off somewheres. Tom Hanks came outside telling me I wasn't done yet. (Carrie had no lines in that scene, and so I was given another chance with another script). So I went back in. Actors around the table again. He told me I was gonna be M.. L.. or M.. S.., I couldn't remember the name, but it was a cute girl name. (Kung ML yun, tangina hahaha) Problem is, I didn't know my lines, as I was telling Gerard Mutuc (the MOCC), who was seated right beside me. He said it's ok, "Adlib naman." He told ML was the girl in the corner but I wasn't confused. Another girl said ML was mataray. I asked her, "Mag-aaway kami?" But she said no, she would just make us tense. The girl in the corner said she didn't like her role. She had glasses like mine and had a half-ponytail with her hair that's a little bit shorter than mine. But I told her that her role was "Astig nga eh." END.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

One that doesn 't involve him for once.

I was in school. In a normal-sized classroom except that the ceiling goes way up higher. It doesn't look like the rooms in DLSU, though. It had a platform like the ones in the SJ classrooms, and the place actually reminds me of Hogwarts. It was DLSU, but I was surrounded by Povedans.

The only faces I remember are Prichie, Sona, and Sir Diño. Although I think Cristal and Pia might have been there too. We were all about to leave the room except Sona and Sir Diño. I was asking Sona what course she was taking, and she said music. I said, "Music? In La Salle?" She said, "No, in.. ". I can't recall the name, but it was a music school, and she was gonna graduate from there but taking her classes here. She and Sir Diño started for a corner in the room to start their lesson -- it was individual, flute -- and I followed them. I asked Sir Diño how much it would be if I asked him to teach me the saxophone. For some reason I wanted to whisper it into his ear but he was so tall I couldn't reach him. He said only 50. "An hour?" I was shocked. Then I told him I was learning the clarinet, gesturing as if I were playing one. I forget the rest, I just know I went back to where I came from, finding only Prichie there sitting at the platform and telling her I was leaving. I don't know whether she came along or not.

Saturday, December 11, 2004


Dammit! Had another one about him.. Would you believe that? We were getting our EAF together. Pat was there too. But I don't think I was with both of them at the same time.

The second floor of Miguel (the building haha) where the EAFs are released seemed bigger, wider, and the Dean's Office had a new window (also bigger - allows you to see who's actually giving you your EAF!) that reminds me of the Accounting Office in Poveda. It was also Window 18. Hmmm. The line was long, too.

He seemed distant. But I was with him. I remember being with Pat, though, and not wanting to go back to him. I mean, of course I wanted to, but I was scared or something. Not scared like there's anything to fear, but my usual "diyahe"-ness when it comes to dealing with people.

Something about the DLSU Track was also there. A sign in the bulletin board in the second floor. Something about enrollment. I dunno. I remember him punching the sign. Heh.

So. I've had five dreams about him now. In all of them he seemed hard to reach. Even in the first one, in which I was with him most of the time. I wonder..

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Another strange but intriguing one.

God I had a dream about him again. This time Cristal was in it. She was in the track varsity tambayan in school. But it wasn't the tambayans outside SPS, it was a bench like Pat's tambayan, inside a building that had a wide space, like a sports complex of some sort. The tambayan was in a corner, near the entrance.

I was surprised to see Tal there. He was there too, of course. I didn't get to talk to him, though. All's I remember is that I was too excited with Tal to talk to him, and I didn't want to talk to him out of, well, shyness. When I got a hold of Cristal, though, he was the main topic of our conversation. Everybody went out of the building, Tal and him and other track people in a group; Tal kind of separated from them coz she was with me. "Track ka pala?" "Swerte mo." "Kilala mo pala siya.." and all that. I asked her what they were asked to do for the audition (something I wanted to ask him in real life). I remember her making some gestures but I don't quite remember what she said.

Then we were together in a car talking about how you can be a varsity member of another school. In the dream Tal was a student of UP Manila as she is in real life. She was part of the Chorale as she is in real life. The Chorale keeps her busy. In the dream, she had more extra-curricular in UPM than just the Chorale. She was very busy, and still had time to be a Green Trackster. I remember she was saying she's not really a full Trackster, she mentioned something like "parang yaya nga lang ako eh" -- which I don't understand right now, but I guess I must have understood it in the dream. She was saying that if you go to another school, you can only be a varsity member of DLSU if you passed the entrance exam you took before freshman year. And of course we were talking about him; she said she first got to talk to him through text, we were agreeing that he was cute, and I remember kinikilig ako.. I don't remember the rest, all's I know is that we were talking about him. She even referred to him as Miggy.. in the dream I remembered that we told Anton it was Cristal who was asking about him, and I was gonna mention it to her, but didn't get to, because we were too hung up on talking about something else..

I also remember that somehow we were in G4. We were outside, waiting for Mom and Co to pick us up, who when they called said they were in Katipunan already (and in the dream it wasn't very far). Also, G4 was right behind Galle and Megamall, aside from being next to SM as it is in real life.

*Cristal's extra-curricular work >> That UPM Chorale concert last Saturday
*Track >> Been reading a lot about the Tracksters - in the net, in the Lasallian, also been hearing a lot about Trackster members, one classmate in Litera2 I think is a Trackster (and a blockmate of his), and of course HE himself is a Trackster (or was)
*Cristal<=>Miguel >> Telling Anton that it was Tal who knew him
*Track tambayan >> Pat's tambayan (softball, in Chess Plaza)
*Audition question - curiosity about how track auditions go about
*G4, Galle, Megamall, SM >> Mall-hopping yesterday? Went Christmas shopping with Mom
*Katipunan >> Probably the morning walk with Dad in UP Diliman, or that Ardz gig
*HIMSELF >> well, I don't know, really, these days he's in the concious more than in the sub, although sometimes I do forget about him unconciously.. labo?! Must be the desire to see him tomorrow!

Monday, December 06, 2004


Ok, now I had two dreams about my sister.

The first one was last night, and it had my cousin Tin in it again. I was in the car (the pick-up) on the way from or to school. I think it was from. Anyway, I was with my sister and my cousin. That's it.

Well, my cousin doesn't ride with me anymore in real life, and of course my sister is in the other side of the world.

The next dream was just this afternoon. I took a nap. You see, my sister is coming home on the 26th. In the dream, though, she arrived at the 24th, Christmas Eve, without telling us. She meant it as a surprise. Only my brother knew. We were off somewhere. I remember my dad having dinner somewhere (must be my subconscious listening to my parents talk while I was asleep about Tito Ed's birthday party tonight). But he was able to see my sister, who came with my bro, who came from somewhere supposedly to "just look around". Then all of a sudden the place turned into an airport. My sister was lining up fixing her documents and all that..

What's with all this dreaming more than once about the same person?

Friday, December 03, 2004

The Ataris

Now I had a dream about the Ataris. They were playing Between You And Me, I think, but as I try to recall it now, it doesn't sound like it. I was super headbanging to the chorus. Was with Anna and Anya I think.