You think she's an open book
But you don't know which page to turn to
..do you?

New sounds for what's been a week now - Cake's Fashion Nugget.

posted by introvert at 8:33:29 PM

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Listening to: Complainte De La Butte - Cora Vaucaire

Oh, Paris!!


See the Eiffel Tower? Ain't it pretty. My trip to Europe was wrong timing.

(I just found out that song was written by a Renoir.. don't know who, though)

posted by introvert at 9:13:48 PM

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Electronica, IDM, Trip-Hop, whatever you wanna call it.
It's like listening to the future.

Star fruits surf rider.

posted by introvert at 5:27:24 PM

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Why would I rather stay home?
Not like before, when I'd jump at every chance to get out.

Must be the RealOne Rhapsody free 7-day trial.

posted by introvert at 4:49:20 PM

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Journey Around The Sun

This article's awesome: A Reason For A Season

I guess I'd be thinkin' about the sun as the days go by.

posted by introvert at 9:54:51 AM

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It's Johnny Mercer's birthday today =D

posted by introvert at 8:51:45 PM

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I have a disorder of putting my e-mail address in the BCC textbox of the messages I send out to people. A disorder of sending myself an exact copy of my messages.

posted by introvert at 7:09:20 PM

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OKAY I am wasting time again. I decided to register at cservice again because my IP address is banned in #mp3oldies because of some stupid porn bot.. anyway, I tried registering a number of times yesterday because they wouldn't accept the @yahoo.com or @lycos.com email accounts, it had to be an ISP email. Well, unfortunately I don't have one, but when I tried entering my old edsamail email, it worked. But of course edsamail's gone so I wouldn't receive the verification. Edsamail isn't an ISP, but it does have a .ph (username@edsamail.com.ph) so I figured any .ph email would do. Tonight I remembered every student from DLSU has a studentno.@dlsu.edu.ph email! Haha! DLSU aint so bad after all ahaha!

So there. Besides being able to sign up at cservice with a cool nick (lansky311..kinda korni sorta actually ehehe), that DLSU email is pretty cool.

posted by introvert at 10:10:09 PM

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Freewriting

I have just thought about death. I don't mean to be dark or anything.

After dinner I felt sleepy right away. I sat in the sofa, half lying down. I remembered Rico Yan who died of bangungot. Yesterday my dad was telling me someone he knew from PLDT just died of bangungot. I sat there for a while, thinking of bangungot. I felt like sleeping. For around a minute there, I didn't care that I had just taken a heavy dinner. I wanted to sleep. And maybe, just maybe, not wake up. Just for a minute..

But I got up. And went upstairs. Here I am in front of the computer. When I'm supposed to be studying for Philosophy..

Death is a scary concept, but sometimes.. it's not that I want to die; it's just fine with me if it happens. As I write this though, it's scary. But yeah, sometimes I would rather just die than do things I wouldn't like to do. Like studying for Philo, for one thing. And going to school tomorrow. What the fuck is so bad about school? Sigh. I just have been feeling well in school lately. Could be grades. Could be something else.. could be someone. Fuck. Don't want to think to about it.

Also, a thought has recently entered my mind suddenly. A thought that's quite been bothering me. I was thinkin', I should have went with Frances to UK.. if I was there right now, well, I don't really know if I'd be enjoying. But perhaps I would. Hell, it's a new place. It's the UK. Would I miss the Philippines? Of course I would. What I'm not sure of is, would I miss the life I had here. I love Manila, yes, but sometimes I think the only way to really move on is going away. Temporarily maybe, or perhaps permanently.

If I were in the UK right now.. I wouldn't have gone to DLSU. DLSU.. De La Salle University. It's only the second trimester and I'm tired. Tired of school? Yeah, but I feel like it's not just school. Not the atmosphere, I'm sorta used to it. In fact I like it around there when I'm alone. Tired of my block perhaps. But my friends there are ok. I just wish we were around only 20 in the block or something, like Cristal's in UP Manila. Or it could be a certain someone. But that I don't want to talk about. I feel that I'm evil enough already.

Daddy like George Harrison. He's been my favorite Beatle for no particular reason. I often like things for reasons I'm not aware of.

I like a lot of things that I didn't know my Dad also likes. Heh.

So. As I was saying. Maybe it's better to check out the rest of the world first before thinking of dying.

posted by introvert at 9:05:03 PM

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ooh yeah. hehehe. when i turned the radio on, the song was amber, then right after that, a sublime song.. ayun, katatapos lang. hehe. ang babaw ng mga posts ko ngayon ano ehehe

posted by introvert at 8:35:54 PM

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It's a beautiful afternoon. Blue skies but not very sunny. Warm but strong winds from the storm yesterday. And it's Saturday.

I love Saturdays like these.

posted by introvert at 2:44:45 PM

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The skies are very pretty this time of year.

posted by introvert at 5:33:13 PM

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FUCK SCHOOL! >:-(

posted by introvert at 5:16:42 PM

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Oh, yes. I have just bought two Christmas CD's from AstroVision in Podium for only Php348. A Bing Crosby one and the other is Glenn Miller. The Glenn Miller one is pretty cool. Swingin' Christmas. It's my kind of Christmas.

I do want the Rat Pack Christmas CD too. But for now, these are more than fine =D

I can already feel the holidays, but I can't wait until it's really here. I think it's gonna be my favorite season of the year.

posted by introvert at 10:46:04 PM

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I don't know if it has anything to do with what Nick Hexum said, but I feel guilty after I feel bad. That means I feel bad after I feel bad.. ehehe, well..

Mr. Hexum said he'd feel guilty when he complains about his life because so many people have it worse.

It's not that I complain about my life. I have just been feeling bad lately. You see, I feel like I've been asking too much from some people. Especially my parents. The computer fucking up, my friend riding to school with me, and I think I just infected my brother's computer with a virus. I don't do it on purpose, but I feel bad that they happen. I mean, they're already so busy and stuff, and here I am making it worse.. or perhaps I'm not, but either way it makes me feel bad. And when I do feel bad, I feel bad for feeling bad because I'm not supposed to feel bad. Heh. Yes, I don't quite understand it myself.

I just wish these things won't happen again. Not soon, at least. Give them time to forget. I want to be a good child to them. It's not that I've been bad, but.. hell, I don't know. I just feel bad. WAHHHH!!!!! How do you become a good child while being a good friend anyway?

Oh, I guess this will all go away soon. I'll just go and watch The Sopranos to make me feel better. And then get some rest. Sigh.

posted by introvert at 3:59:38 PM

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