nothing feels good
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Like you in red & blue jeans and your white and night things.

Friday, November 28, 2003
You think she's an open book
But you don't know which page to turn to you?

New sounds for what's been a week now - Cake's Fashion Nugget.

posted by introvert at 8:33:29 PM
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Tuesday, November 25, 2003
Listening to: Complainte De La Butte - Cora Vaucaire

Oh, Paris!!

See the Eiffel Tower? Ain't it pretty. My trip to Europe was wrong timing.

(I just found out that song was written by a Renoir.. don't know who, though)

posted by introvert at 9:13:48 PM
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Monday, November 24, 2003
Electronica, IDM, Trip-Hop, whatever you wanna call it.
It's like listening to the future.

Star fruits surf rider.

posted by introvert at 5:27:24 PM
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Saturday, November 22, 2003
Why would I rather stay home?
Not like before, when I'd jump at every chance to get out.

Must be the RealOne Rhapsody free 7-day trial.

posted by introvert at 4:49:20 PM
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Journey Around The Sun

This article's awesome:
A Reason For A Season

I guess I'd be thinkin' about the sun as the days go by.

posted by introvert at 9:54:51 AM
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Tuesday, November 18, 2003
It's Johnny Mercer's birthday today =D

posted by introvert at 8:51:45 PM
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I have a disorder of putting my e-mail address in the BCC textbox of the messages I send out to people. A disorder of sending myself an exact copy of my messages.

posted by introvert at 7:09:20 PM
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Sunday, November 16, 2003
OKAY I am wasting time again. I decided to register at cservice again because my IP address is banned in #mp3oldies because of some stupid porn bot.. anyway, I tried registering a number of times yesterday because they wouldn't accept the or email accounts, it had to be an ISP email. Well, unfortunately I don't have one, but when I tried entering my old edsamail email, it worked. But of course edsamail's gone so I wouldn't receive the verification. Edsamail isn't an ISP, but it does have a .ph ( so I figured any .ph email would do. Tonight I remembered every student from DLSU has a email! Haha! DLSU aint so bad after all ahaha!

So there. Besides being able to sign up at cservice with a cool nick (lansky311..kinda korni sorta actually ehehe), that DLSU email is pretty cool.

posted by introvert at 10:10:09 PM
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I have just thought about death. I don't mean to be dark or anything.

After dinner I felt sleepy right away. I sat in the sofa, half lying down. I remembered Rico Yan who died of bangungot. Yesterday my dad was telling me someone he knew from PLDT just died of bangungot. I sat there for a while, thinking of bangungot. I felt like sleeping. For around a minute there, I didn't care that I had just taken a heavy dinner. I wanted to sleep. And maybe, just maybe, not wake up. Just for a minute..

But I got up. And went upstairs. Here I am in front of the computer. When I'm supposed to be studying for Philosophy..

Death is a scary concept, but sometimes.. it's not that I want to die; it's just fine with me if it happens. As I write this though, it's scary. But yeah, sometimes I would rather just die than do things I wouldn't like to do. Like studying for Philo, for one thing. And going to school tomorrow. What the fuck is so bad about school? Sigh. I just have been feeling well in school lately. Could be grades. Could be something else.. could be someone. Fuck. Don't want to think to about it.

Also, a thought has recently entered my mind suddenly. A thought that's quite been bothering me. I was thinkin', I should have went with Frances to UK.. if I was there right now, well, I don't really know if I'd be enjoying. But perhaps I would. Hell, it's a new place. It's the UK. Would I miss the Philippines? Of course I would. What I'm not sure of is, would I miss the life I had here. I love Manila, yes, but sometimes I think the only way to really move on is going away. Temporarily maybe, or perhaps permanently.

If I were in the UK right now.. I wouldn't have gone to DLSU. DLSU.. De La Salle University. It's only the second trimester and I'm tired. Tired of school? Yeah, but I feel like it's not just school. Not the atmosphere, I'm sorta used to it. In fact I like it around there when I'm alone. Tired of my block perhaps. But my friends there are ok. I just wish we were around only 20 in the block or something, like Cristal's in UP Manila. Or it could be a certain someone. But that I don't want to talk about. I feel that I'm evil enough already.

Daddy like George Harrison. He's been my favorite Beatle for no particular reason. I often like things for reasons I'm not aware of.

I like a lot of things that I didn't know my Dad also likes. Heh.

So. As I was saying. Maybe it's better to check out the rest of the world first before thinking of dying.

posted by introvert at 9:05:03 PM
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ooh yeah. hehehe. when i turned the radio on, the song was amber, then right after that, a sublime song.. ayun, katatapos lang. hehe. ang babaw ng mga posts ko ngayon ano ehehe

posted by introvert at 8:35:54 PM
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Saturday, November 15, 2003
It's a beautiful afternoon. Blue skies but not very sunny. Warm but strong winds from the storm yesterday. And it's Saturday.

I love Saturdays like these.

posted by introvert at 2:44:45 PM
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Monday, November 10, 2003
The skies are very pretty this time of year.

posted by introvert at 5:33:13 PM
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Sunday, November 09, 2003

posted by introvert at 5:16:42 PM
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Saturday, November 08, 2003
Oh, yes. I have just bought two Christmas CD's from AstroVision in Podium for only Php348. A Bing Crosby one and the other is Glenn Miller. The Glenn Miller one is pretty cool. Swingin' Christmas. It's my kind of Christmas.

I do want the Rat Pack Christmas CD too. But for now, these are more than fine =D

I can already feel the holidays, but I can't wait until it's really here. I think it's gonna be my favorite season of the year.

posted by introvert at 10:46:04 PM
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Tuesday, November 04, 2003
I don't know if it has anything to do with what Nick Hexum said, but I feel guilty after I feel bad. That means I feel bad after I feel bad.. ehehe, well..

Mr. Hexum said he'd feel guilty when he complains about his life because so many people have it worse.

It's not that I complain about my life. I have just been feeling bad lately. You see, I feel like I've been asking too much from some people. Especially my parents. The computer fucking up, my friend riding to school with me, and I think I just infected my brother's computer with a virus. I don't do it on purpose, but I feel bad that they happen. I mean, they're already so busy and stuff, and here I am making it worse.. or perhaps I'm not, but either way it makes me feel bad. And when I do feel bad, I feel bad for feeling bad because I'm not supposed to feel bad. Heh. Yes, I don't quite understand it myself.

I just wish these things won't happen again. Not soon, at least. Give them time to forget. I want to be a good child to them. It's not that I've been bad, but.. hell, I don't know. I just feel bad. WAHHHH!!!!! How do you become a good child while being a good friend anyway?

Oh, I guess this will all go away soon. I'll just go and watch The Sopranos to make me feel better. And then get some rest. Sigh.

posted by introvert at 3:59:38 PM
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